what we have

I’ve subscribed to Gwyneth Paltrow’s Goop for almost a year now. With this, I receive newsletters from time to time and my most favorite ones to receive are GO which talks about places/restaurants to go/visit. What I enjoy about it is I get to see pictures and read stories, and with it, I seem to get transported to different places and eat in different restaurants from all over the world. Oh you know how the mind works as a vessel; just fill her up and it’d take you somewhere.

During those ‘imaginary travels’, I realize more and more how it’d be a joy to visit different places, shops, and restaurants. I don’t think I’d be much of a shopper though. I’d be more of someone who stares at a wonderful combination of paint shades and architecture, gushes on a shop’s dainty boxes, wrappings, and paper bags (I know Japan’s shops are some of the best when it comes to this), and tastes whatever’s interesting on the menu.

And then of course, the unsurprising part happens, I wake up.

I’ve been married for almost half a decade now, and it’d be hypocritical of me to think that there’s no other beautiful place for me but home 24/7 or for always, while I also think of travelling to different places alone a dream come true. That's just an example, of course; (and a helluva one at that.)

I guess what I’m trying to say is that I, like probably a lot of people out there, am not excused to ponder on the constraints placed on me by the choices I made. Don’t you? Don’t you ponder–which sometimes include estimates, opinions, or judgments– on other people’s decisions (aside from yours) and, in the silliest thought, think you won? LOL!

Moments like this must be of course the far-sightedness case of ‘the grass seemed always greener on the other side,’ that I can almost hear everyone mouthing to me the cliché, ‘you cannot have everything.’ :hide:

I’m afraid there’s really no other point in this entry except the acknowledgment of going through those moments of 'ponder', and the acknowledgment that, by each time the moment ends, it's so much easier to love and embrace what we have.